Here’s another photo from the albums I was browsing through last night. I was sitting on my then-boyfriend’s bed, and he wanted to capture this pose. I love this photo because it’s very “me” in a way that is not easy to explain in words.
This past year has been a very solitary one for me, by choice. I withdrew from most of the social activities that I once engaged in, including speaking engagements. It was my intuition that led me to seek solitude. My values were just not matching up anymore with any of the available social activities. And I needed the peace and quiet to get a lot more clarity about my own belief system and the collective unconscious belief systems. I am grateful during this time that I had my loyal clients and customers because they at least understand my vision. I am also deeply grateful that, in spite of the fact that I did not feel very motivated — especially the past few months — to work on my business or recruit new clients and customers, the Universe has provided for me anyway. On track to make about $400,000 this year. Less than my original goal of seven figures but very generous considering that my attention was diverted away from business for much of the year.
Now, I don’t think it’s a coincidence that the Holistic Belief Reprogramming videos I’ve been recording seem to be gravitating back toward the physical world. There were the Fritz the Cat healing videos, of course. But I also did the 30-Day Health, Fitness & Beauty Challenge, lost some pounds myself … and now I am feeling drawn back toward the sensual and the intimate and the social.
I’m not rushing it, though. As I looked through all those photographs and remembered the vast array of adventures I have had in this lifetime, I smiled and felt a lot of joy in it. Lots of really fun memories with some really good friends. And yet, at the same time, I know I am not going back there. Those roads had their moments of happiness but were not ultimately satisfying. I am now creating something new. “Beyond this world there is a world I want.”
My inner guidance has been telling me for a long time that the reason I am here is to bring Heaven to Earth. It’s not enough to become “super spiritual” and drift off into the astral realms. That’s not why I’m here. I’m here to take the vast life experience that I have, and all the dead ends and tragic outcomes that I know are built into this world, and realign all of it. People love cliches like “you can’t have the good without the bad.” I don’t believe that is true. I am here to remove all the bad so that life can become a pure experience of joy.
That probably sounds “crazy” to some people. In the world of duality, all most people can imagine are the spectrum of pleasure and pain. That doesn’t mean that’s all there is. And I’ve had enough experience now with transcending dualities and finding stable joy that I know it’s possible to accomplish this in all areas of life.
Right now I’m just being with the peace and quiet and listening for further guidance.
Erika Awakening, High Priestess of Miracles at TAPsmarter