Steve Piccus White Tiger Tantra Review
Sharing my personal experience with White Tiger Tantra by Steve Piccus. Be forewarned, this is going to be a graphic article about White Tiger Tantra … not for those with delicate stomachs. Don’t say I didn’t tell you so.
As many of you know, over the weekend, Erika Awakening had her first personal “awakening” with Steve Piccus, his team, and his White Tiger Tantra practice (please remember if you purchase your White Tiger DVDs through my link here, you’ll be helping to support me continuing to write this free blog, your support is sooooo appreciated :). I will be writing the second installment of this journey and distributing it only to those on my newsletter subscriber list, so if you’re not already signed up, please sign up NOW in the right-hand side bar of this blog …
For now, I’m going to write about something that I suspect was a second, post- White Tiger Tantra level of healing …
I woke up very early in the morning with menstrual cramps, which I have had like clockwork on the first day of my cycle for years. Usually I down some Advil, and 15 minutes later am not feeling anything anymore. (I’ll be honest, in the past, menstrual cramps are one of the few issues I’ve not had any success with resolving with Holistic Belief Reprogramming — after today’s experience, I believe I know why — I was not getting deep enough into the issues that are in the tissues …)
Inspired by my experience with White Tiger Tantra last weekend, I decided to try something new. Some years ago, I listened to Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now on audio. I remember him talking about how, each month, the Feminine Pain Body comes to the surface in menstruating women. He noted that if a woman learned how to become present with the Pain Body each month, instead of “acting it out” (for example by lashing out at all the men in her life), it would be a really powerful spiritual practice.
So I thought, “well, this taking Advil is really a form of suppression or dissociation. I’m using Advil to avoid the pain, not resolve the pain. What if I become present with the pain instead?”
Well, and this is where it gets graphic … that’s what I did. I breathed really deeply into the pain, really moved my awareness into the (rather intense) discomfort, thinking to myself, well, this is either going to dissolve the pain, or I can just go back to taking Advil for now. I noticed how my body was resisting and fighting the pain (just as, you will learn in my newsletter, I resisted the White Tiger). I noticed how my abdomen was clamping down around the sore areas, and I focused on consciously relaxing into the pain instead. I moved into the pain.
Next thing I know …
I found myself on my bathroom floor, writhing around, barely able to move, and alternating between vomiting into the sink and using the toilet, as layer after layer of toxic energy was purged from my body. Too late to reach for the Advil now, everything had already been set in motion …
As I was able to, I tapped for some easier release and noticed really icky beliefs coming to the surface, such as “If I have sex, I’ll be punished.” Layers of old Adam and Eve mythology, my mind’s equating sex with the “forbidden fruit,” being cast out of the Garden of Eden, feeling it is all “women’s fault” that mankind fell from Grace, the belief that having sex destroys my relationships, the Biblical stories I learned as a child about how women were “punished” for eating the forbidden fruit with painful menstruation and painful childbirth, that it’s not okay to be a woman, that it’s dangerous to be a woman, that it’s sinful to be a woman … along with all the purging and extremely intense pain, these beliefs were coming to the surface at a mile a minute … the Collective Feminine Pain-Body and all its associated, horrific beliefs. Many of them beliefs that I consciously believed I had “let go of” years ago, but … obviously not.
Phew! It felt like a freaking exorcism.
This went on for several hours until I had finally cleared enough layers that the pain subsided, and then I fell asleep, exhausted.
For those who are fans of The Power of Now, this may not be what you’ve envisioned by “Presence,” but in my experience, sometimes the most dramatic sessions like this are also the most healing and transformative.
So I’m curious to see what will happen now … will this post White Tiger Tantra healing be the end of menstrual cramps for me, because I finally got that toxic energy out? Or are there more layers to clear?