Steve Piccus White Tiger Tantra Review
Sharing my personal experience with White Tiger Tantra by Steve Piccus. Be forewarned, this is going to be a graphic article about White Tiger Tantra … not for those with delicate stomachs. Don’t say I didn’t tell you so.
As many of you know, over the weekend, Erika Awakening had her first personal “awakening” with Steve Piccus, his team, and his White Tiger Tantra practice (please remember if you purchase your White Tiger DVDs through my link here, you’ll be helping to support me continuing to write this free blog, your support is sooooo appreciated :). I will be writing the second installment of this journey and distributing it only to those on my newsletter subscriber list, so if you’re not already signed up, please sign up NOW in the right-hand side bar of this blog …
For now, I’m going to write about something that I suspect was a second, post- White Tiger Tantra level of healing …
I woke up very early in the morning with menstrual cramps, which I have had like clockwork on the first day of my cycle for years. Usually I down some Advil, and 15 minutes later am not feeling anything anymore. (I’ll be honest, in the past, menstrual cramps are one of the few issues I’ve not had any success with resolving with Holistic Belief Reprogramming — after today’s experience, I believe I know why — I was not getting deep enough into the issues that are in the tissues …)
Inspired by my experience with White Tiger Tantra last weekend, I decided to try something new. Some years ago, I listened to Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now on audio. I remember him talking about how, each month, the Feminine Pain Body comes to the surface in menstruating women. He noted that if a woman learned how to become present with the Pain Body each month, instead of “acting it out” (for example by lashing out at all the men in her life), it would be a really powerful spiritual practice.
So I thought, “well, this taking Advil is really a form of suppression or dissociation. I’m using Advil to avoid the pain, not resolve the pain. What if I become present with the pain instead?”
Well, and this is where it gets graphic … that’s what I did. I breathed really deeply into the pain, really moved my awareness into the (rather intense) discomfort, thinking to myself, well, this is either going to dissolve the pain, or I can just go back to taking Advil for now. I noticed how my body was resisting and fighting the pain (just as, you will learn in my newsletter, I resisted the White Tiger). I noticed how my abdomen was clamping down around the sore areas, and I focused on consciously relaxing into the pain instead. I moved into the pain.
Next thing I know …
I found myself on my bathroom floor, writhing around, barely able to move, and alternating between vomiting into the sink and using the toilet, as layer after layer of toxic energy was purged from my body. Too late to reach for the Advil now, everything had already been set in motion …
As I was able to, I tapped for some easier release and noticed really icky beliefs coming to the surface, such as “If I have sex, I’ll be punished.” Layers of old Adam and Eve mythology, my mind’s equating sex with the “forbidden fruit,” being cast out of the Garden of Eden, feeling it is all “women’s fault” that mankind fell from Grace, the belief that having sex destroys my relationships, the Biblical stories I learned as a child about how women were “punished” for eating the forbidden fruit with painful menstruation and painful childbirth, that it’s not okay to be a woman, that it’s dangerous to be a woman, that it’s sinful to be a woman … along with all the purging and extremely intense pain, these beliefs were coming to the surface at a mile a minute … the Collective Feminine Pain-Body and all its associated, horrific beliefs. Many of them beliefs that I consciously believed I had “let go of” years ago, but … obviously not.
Phew! It felt like a freaking exorcism.
This went on for several hours until I had finally cleared enough layers that the pain subsided, and then I fell asleep, exhausted.
For those who are fans of The Power of Now, this may not be what you’ve envisioned by “Presence,” but in my experience, sometimes the most dramatic sessions like this are also the most healing and transformative.
So I’m curious to see what will happen now … will this post White Tiger Tantra healing be the end of menstrual cramps for me, because I finally got that toxic energy out? Or are there more layers to clear?
We shall see …
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Dear Erika and Sandi,
Good God!! Are you two serious?! You mean ALL that garbage that you so gloriously described is what’s been inside your head(or wherever)all these years?!
I’m stunned to say the least! A woman menstruating is something beautiful! It’s nothing but an unfertilized egg that’s being cleansed out of the body, after it has initially prepared for a possible pregnancy.
What’s there to hate/be ashamed of/ loathe and all the other form of self-abuse that you’ll heap on yourself!
And on hating yourselves for being women!? I could write another paragraph or two about how twisted that actually is.
In short, be proud about being the goddesses that you actually are….
cramps, menstruation, babies, eve or no eve!
Peace and Much Love
Mani,
Goa, India.
Hi Erika,
I certainly can relate to the subconcious layers of socialized conditioning and propaganda we have been led into believing as women in our socieity. Yes so many layers! I personally have always hated being a woman who menstruates. Yes the whole guilt thing since Eve (allegedly) is responsible for the fall of man! Yeah right! Also the pain the discomfort and mess has always felt like such a curse. I always thought women were taught to revere themselves not with esteem but with a critical eye where nothing quite ever measured up in the male dominated society that requires women to be submissive in all things. Where I always felt the need to prove myself or suffer the consequences of being too confrontational or even too curious. A very curious condition where I always felt my self worth and self esteem was contingent on the approval of the higher authority of god, church, patriarchs and fathers…not women. So there has been a sufferage of pain that has been ever-present and anaesthetized as we go about trying to set it all aside so we might perhaps create new paradigms for ourselves…only to feel that aching feeling of knowing we are greater than this, but what has become of the beauty of the women’s soul? In younger days I acted out against the rejection of my own powerful femininity by abusing it in bad relationships that were so descructive. It has been a life-long inner torment for sure.
Piccus is truly a master mind/body healer. Looking forward to hearing more about your improvements…