“I contain multitudes.” – Walt Whitman

Yea could be, or there are just paradoxes going on. I do my very best not to avoid anything, especially my own feelings. When we are actively avoiding someone, we are usually avoiding our own feelings. Sometimes though my intuition tells me to disengage from “this world” and go deeper within. This may look like avoidance to the untrained eye, but it’s actually the opposite.

Thanks Amy. We just posted another new blog on a very different topic here:

http://erikaawakening.com/yaro-starak-interview-debunking-myths-making-six-figure-income-online/

Hi Erika, I read your other blog you linked to above – wow. Definitely inspiring further reflection. I plan to comment soon…

I also drink very little anymore. Maybe twice a year. Because of that my tolerance is ridiculously low and for the last 5 years half a glass of wine would definitely affect me. But the last 2 times I’ve had some either wine or beer (since beginning to study ACIM), it caught me off guard to notice nothing happens anymore! I happened to mention this curiosity to my sister, who also studies ACIM, and she has experienced this too. I find it so interesting, as alcohol used to be a welcome relief for my social inhibitions.

As you wrote above that the wine isn’t feeling good, my sister said it just that way (she has been meditating and doing other things for years before I have, and the “bliss of alcohol” is by comparison for her a worse feeling than the blissful feeling she now walks around with). Something will occasionally throw her into fear or anxiety mode, and she said it’s like being 2 different people. I still spend a far amount of time with uncomfortable thoughts so I couldn’t fully relate to that part of what she was saying, but I find it so interesting that ACIM has so many healing effects on mind/body to produce this kind of new normal. The question “Is this what you would have in place of heaven?” has to apply equally to not only the negative aspects of life but all of the pleasurable things in life. It all signifies separation in different forms. I am still considering what that means to our time on this planet but will post more to your other link above. Thanks for your thoughts, always appreciated.

Could be … we’ll see how it feels … :)

Thanks for stopping by Alex. Yea I understand all that – and even for me, it was useful for a long time. Just now feels like its many “costs” outweigh its benefits. Could be spending a lot more time and bandwidth on something else, like writing blog posts here :) Hope to see you again soon.