Taking full responsibility … the pain and the power :)

Wow, wow, wow. What huge revelations for me over this past week …

You know, it was not accidental that I used the image of a genie to promote 15- Week Miracle Coaching Program a few weeks ago.

The Universe is waiting to giving us exactly what we want, just like the genie in the bottle. The only problem is that the Universe is waiting for very clear instructions from us. If we give it mixed messages, it gives us mixed results. This is why I talk so frequently about the importance of congruence.

All too often, what we are asking for consciously is being undermined by what we are asking for unconsciously (through our unrecognized old limiting beliefs and unresolved icky karma).

This recent taking full responsibility for what I am creating has been very painful but also very empowering.

Very painful because when I revisited the article I wrote about liberating relationships, the one that drew Entropy to me, I realized that in that article I was NOT asking clearly for what I really want. When I go back and read it now, it sounds mixed. Some parts I like, other parts sound hard and cold. I will be happy if you leave me, no matter what? Really? Who wants to live in that kind of world, where we can cultivate a relationship for months or years and then one of us abruptly disconnects and everything we co-created is just *gone*

I’m going to be happy after that? Not likely. Let’s be honest. It’s disheartening to keep starting over, again and again. How can we invest our whole heart in something transient and fleeting?

So now I’m going to start asking clearly for what I really do want. A permanent partner. A guy I can count on. A partnership where we co-create a really magnificent life and we trust each other so much that we know we’re going to have this connection and this paradise until the end of time. That’s what I want. I don’t want any fleeting relationship bullshit. I want real, true, lasting love.

What have I had to erase from my unconscious mind to become more congruent with this vision? Well, my mom raised us to be extremely self-sufficient. She didn’t even help us with laundry or making our lunch. It was “do it yourself or it’s not getting done.” She thought she was helping us (and I take full responsibility for “choosing my parents” before I incarnated), but what she was really doing was giving us anti-intimacy training.

This is why I’ve been using What Is Holistic Belief Reprogramming? to rewire my entire unconscious mind for intimacy and lasting connection.

In the meantime, as I transition from the cold hard world of self-sufficiency and individual achievement to the warm soft world of the intimacy, interdependency, and the heart, I’ve been sending the Universe mixed messages. Which means I also sent Entropy mixed messages.

No wonder, then, that I didn’t receive exactly what I wanted.

So today has been painful. I’m pretty pissed off at myself for spending another year asking without clarity and receiving mixed results.

At the same time, I’m grateful for the clarity that I now have.

I want the real thing. I want all the love, intimacy, sex, and affection that I can handle. I want a partnership where we spread this teaching and healing to the far corners of the earth. And I want it with a masculine, sexy, powerful man who’s going to be by my side from now until the end of time.

That’s my wish, Genie. Bring it on :)


Oh, and Barry Kirkey just called, so I went on the show impromptu — talking about meditation, with sound effects, lol :-p Make sure to tune in … :)

About the Author:

Erika Awakening is a Harvard Law School graduate and former practicing attorney. She left the rat race to become a location-independent entrepreneur, holistic life coach, blogger, speaker, healer, and Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT tapping) expert. Erika Awakening is one of the world's foremost experts on eradicating limiting beliefs and lifestyle design on your own terms. Learn more about Erika Awakening

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  1. erika your a poor womans version of carrie bradshaw

  2. I want healing and togetherness and safety and feel goodness and joy and laughter for my family ! thank you!!

  3. To Sid and anyone else tracking the positive, negative influences on massive groups of people… take a look at the movie, Entheogenesis, Awakening the Divine Within and pay close attention to the conversation about entrainment… Entrainment may be responsible for all mass social waves, experience in one direction or the other…

    Check it out for yourself

  4. I do not share the same view regarding suffering.

    **** Quote:
    This whole "everything is fleeting, life is suffering, love is pain" bullshit is yet another ego device to keep us stuck.

    The Love is pain part is bullshit. Love is not defined by pain. But life can have suffering, and life, by its nature is fleeting.

    Eckhart Tolle would

  5. Sid Here.

    I can't agree 100% on your spiritual conclusions there Erika. (That's a rip off of a line from Fargo by the way).

    I do agree that if we are more positive in our outlook we will have a more positive experience, and the same for a negative outlook. But I have to agree more
    with the Rolling Stones – You can't always get what you want, but if you try

  6. Connections do last forever… once you have loved someone, they are part of you and you will have awareness of their thoughts and feelings throughout this thing we call time.

    I get contacted a lot through songs when someone I love is thinking of me… and I can feel when they are really being present with me in that song and when they are only kinda touching in…


  7. Erika,

    Thank you

  8. Ill simplify some of this love and the meaning of life thing for ya Erika and all the readers always be happy in whatever you do (relationship/s, love, job, etc.) if your not happy dont do it…and drink whiskey

  9. Yes, DJ, exactly. Forever means as long as we are perceiving in time. That's what the prophecy says. That's what I want.

    This whole "everything is fleeting, life is suffering, love is pain" bullshit is yet another ego device to keep us stuck.

    We are moving toward salvation, and salvation knows not of fleeting anything. Mark my words.

  10. Well it depends on how we define forever. Forever assumes that we will always be in time.

    To some people standing in line at the supermarket is forever.

    To the 8th grade girl who scribbles on her book cover "I love rob 4ever n ever," it means as far into the future as her young emotional state will allow her to see…could be tomorrow.

    To others waiting

  11. And that, my dear, is what we call a limiting belief :)

  12. Nothing lasts forever. Searching for that which lasts forever creates misery. Believing you've found something that lasts forever is crazy.

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